What I Learned From Some Reminders - August 19, 2014

Today I learned some things.  Well, some of these things I do know already, but, what happened today was a good reminder.

1) What an independent, very proactive young woman my youngest sister has become already; she has been working hard to lay down the foundations for pursuing her goals.

2) How someone even as strong as my Mom has a very hard time dealing with her emotions, and how she always wants a quick fix instead of feeling what she feels, and then taking steps to help in times of pain.  Then it reminded me of how over the years I watched her do this time and again and how it made things worse for her… the wrong the choices she made and how the results were not good for her.  Right now, she is so upset and sad with regards to her health she feels suicidal.

3) I try to remember that everything in life, even the bad is something to be learned and make me stronger.  So on days like this when it seems like I had just taken a step forward in life and now I am shoved ten feet back, I have to think of other periods in my thirty-three years when this occurred and how it made me better down the road; even if it took me awhile to see it.

4) The amazing way the human body can have serious health issues, and whether with the aid of health professionals or on its own will fight back and heal so quickly; sometimes so fast it seems as if the pain never happened.

5) The question that keeps swirling my head lately that both surprises me at how it creates both fear in me, and, excites me: where do I go from here?

6) That above everything else, if I wasn’t home in the north right now, both my sister and I would be alone in dealing with all this.  Realizing this makes me feel happy when together her and I can vent, go to the library, make jokes to cheer each other up, make phone calls and complete errands.

~Ange